5/20/08

On Retreat!

Well I once again find myself on a staff retreat. Two times a year we go away as a staff to plan and prepare for the months ahead. Today we started with a devotional by Pastor Phil from the 8th chapter of Deuteronomy. His message to us was that God causes us to hunger for Him so that He can then answer that hunger by giving us more of Himself.
That was completely a word for me and so I went to sit and talk with the Lord about my need to connect with him in a deeper way. I don't know about you, but sometimes in life I feel this deep need to connect with God, but he seems light years away. That is how I have felt lately. Intellectually, I know He is here and He loves me, but sometimes He feels so distant. So I sat down and just ask him how he felt about me and he gave me a song that wrecked me for a few hours. It is called You're Not Alone by Meredith Andrews. After my time with the Lord I wrote an e-mail to a friend and one line in the e-mail sums up where I am at today. I don't have all the answers, but I wrote...

"Let's just say for now...I know my God loves me, in a fresh way that seems actually relevant for my life today where I am at."

That is my prayer for you today as you listen to this song and you ask God how he feels about you. May you come away knowing that your God loves you in a way that is relevant for you and your life at this moment in time.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You mentioned this blog in our Bible Study a couple weeks ago and I've just made my way over to read it. There was something that came over me and brought intense chills and yet calm at the same time, when in that song she said "I'm the one who's loved you all your life." Just really stopping for a moment and realizing that God has always been there and always will be and that He will love me through no matter what I'm going through is such a comfort. Thank you for sharing your feelings and that song with others. I was definitely touched by it.